"When I get older losing my hair, many years from now..."

Even though I am now at the ripe old age of twenty-four I feel like I am older, or at least my body feels older. "People say you are as you as you feel"- pfft. I feel like at 24 I should not have to worry about health problems but thanks to my awesome mixture of genetics I am. I have a certain doom of hypothyroidism, I was diagnosed with Vasovagal Syncope two years ago and now to add to my list my HDL level is at 20! If you do not know what that is, I will explain...

Each of us has good cholesterol and bad cholesterol. HDL is good and LDL is bad. A normal range of HDL is 50 for women...and as I said above mine is 20!! I receive all of this information via email after getting my thyroid tested[which is STILL in the normal range thank God!]. It being too late to call the doctor, I do some of my own research online... BAD. IDEA. I find a wealth of information that says low HDL levels cause heart attack, stroke and all kinds of horrible things! So, me being the type to be proactive about things' research into the night on what foods I should eat to get my HDL higher. Turns out that an vitamin B3 deficiency causes HDL to be low and the medicine to improve these levels is called "Slo Niacin" which I also looked up and it has all kinds of crazy side effects.

Anyway, I do all of this research. I Freak out thinking that I am going to have a heart attack and or stroke any second. Then when I get to the doctors office three days later he tells me that is not a big deal[right now anyway, when I am 40 is another story]! Apparently since my LDL is also very low [because I am awesome like that], I do not smoke and I do cardiovascular exercise regularly this problem is genetic... thank you genetics. So, I at 24 have begun the long road to getting older in having to take a pill everyday for eternity. I just hope that when I am 65 my list of pills stays under 4 or 5 a day. I feel like that is manageable.

So, overall this rant was about having to take a pill everyday which I am sure some of you had to begin doing way earlier than me but I am still going to pout about it. So, all you people out there it would make me feel much better about my aging self if you would tell me I am not the only one who is doomed at 24. I might as well go ahead and buy one of those "SMTWTFS" pill box things to keep all of my meds straight!

p.s. I am SO totally watching American Gladiators and proud of it!

p.s.s. The quote from my title is from the Beatles song "when I'm 65" ... I love it.

First time for Everything!

I have been Swamped at school and such so blogging got pushed to the back burner for a hot minute! Here is what has been going on lately for little squid and I. She recently started bitter sweet preschool... She was So excited to go to school as you can see in the below pictures! I on the other hand was sad. :( The morning of her first day was a "trial run" to make sure that when I actually had to go to school there would not be a major melt down causing me to have to miss school!

We wake up take a million pictures, pack the preprepared lunch in her DISNEY lunch box and start the drive to preschool. We get there take a million and one more pictures and finally walk in. I hang her stuff on the hook give her a BIG BIG hug...and hen another one... and maybe just one more AND then she says and I quote, "mommy go to school" !!! It was so cute but also gave me a glimpse of the future when hugs and kisses are no longer "allowed" in public. So, I gave her one more hug and kiss and went to the car and cried my eyes out. I so did not want to leave her!

She comes home from school each Monday, Wednesday and Friday it seems knowing so many new things! Singing new songs, bringing home art work!! They learned how to use SCISSORS last week! I would never have thought to give my two-year-old scissors! She knows so much already it blows my mind! Obviously she was given her mothers genius!!! ;)

Even now that we are a good six or seven? weeks into preschool I STILL get sad dropping her off. She loves it and goes in everyday without a hitch. She knows I am leaving her and gives me a hug and tells me she loves me which helps but still I want to cuddle and hold my little baby all day and NEVER EVER let her go! I think it will take me a while to get used to it...if I ever will.

My top five Sydney lines of the moment:

5) Grandpa: "Sydney, do you want to watch Glen Beck?"

Sydney, "NO PAPA!! NEVER EVER EVER EVER" [even though it sounds like "Neber ebber ebber ebber" lol

4) I will tell her sorry about something and she will say, "Don't be sorry mommy it will be okay"

3) I jokingly told my mom the other day that I was going to "kill" her and to that Sydney ran up to me so serious and said, "DON"T KILL GRANDMA" my mom and I DIED laughing!!!

2)When we say our prayers at night she mentions every person she has ever met that she remembers! It takes quite a few minutes!

1) my very top top top favorite thing she has said/says frequently now is

"mommy you are my best friend"

this one just makes my heart explode!!! I did not even teach her that!! She said it one day and I started to cry and then she said, "don't be sad mommy, I make it better" then she attacked me with kisses.

HOW does my heart contain so much love for someone? It feels as if it might burst sometimes!

I will stop blabbing now but that is our life currently and it consists of LOTs of school fo both of us! Except I do not get to bring home fun finger paint art and googly-eye monsters! I WISH we did that in college! How fun would that be!!!

anyway, those of you with kids I would love to hear your favorite moments list!! and if you don't have kid-ee-poos give me your favorite moment of the week! or as I plan on doing at the dinner table because I am super CHEESE-TASTIC the "high" and "low" conversation. [where each member of the dinner table shares a high and a low of there day...I love being cheesy]